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"say goodbye" [17 Sep 2005|07:07pm]
Well, I think I'm going to stop writing in this journal. It seems kinda dead to me and no one ever comments so yeah.. this will probably be goodbye!
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[07 Sep 2005|12:11am]
[ mood | sleepy ]

My gosh, it's been a while since I've updated! haha Well as you can tell I finally got the computer back a few days ago. I have been so busy. College is going good I guess. I don't like my biopsychology class. My professor assumes we know everthing there is to know about psychology so he just runs through everything and I get so lost. Our only two exams (midterm and final) are open book and open note so I should be ok. Now that I am back in college I feel like I don't have any time left. I hate that feeling. The summer was pretty relaxed for me, I want to go back to that.
Work is work. Sometimes I really really dread going to work. I wish I had a job that I enjoyed. Yeah I know that's what I'm going to college for but it would be nice to have a temporary job that I liked. Everything can't always go like you want it to.. that's life I guess.

I went to the fair with Joe tonight. Well, we took Jannike too. We walked around for a little bit before the bull riding. We went into this place where they have all kinds of farm animals and I absolutely fell in love with this adorable spotted baby pig! Oh my gosh, it was the cutest thing. If it wouldn't get any bigger than it was, I would have loved to have it. The mom was so huge so that is probably the size it would get. I think it would be really cool to have a pet pig! haha For some reason, I felt like no matter how much I ate, I couldn't get full. My stomach hurts a little from all the cotton candy I ate. It was so good though.

That's it for my update.. I have to get up early for class tomorrow. I leave you with a few pictures!

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a little info.. [29 Aug 2005|12:16pm]
[ mood | cold ]

I haven't updated in a while because the hard drive in my computer was faulty to begin with then it just stopped working so the computer wouldn't even turn on! I'm at the college...The computer's at a computer shop right now and we are waiting on the hard drive to arrive at our house so we can take it to the shop. It really sucks that I lost everything on the computer.. All those pictures of me and Joe.. and the rest of the pictures too.. that really sucks. I should have the computer back in a few days.. Till then.......


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[18 Aug 2005|02:13am]
I have only two pictures unfortunately. I bought a memory card for my digital camera and after I had taken about 10 pictures it said that the card needed to be formatted so i didn't think anything of it so I selected continue and it then told me that everything on the card would be deleted!!!!!!! Well I decided that I would go ahead and delete the pictures but the stupid card won't format. I'm really mad because I have now lost those pictures and my two uncles are leaving early in the morning so I only have one group shot! Well here are two pictures. I'm going to bed.

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[16 Aug 2005|11:47am]
[ mood | rushed ]

**This was written yesterday!

I am so so so super excited because almost all of my family is in from Michigan. Originally it was just going to be my Nanny and Uncle David but we found out last night that my other uncles, Joe and B.D., came in too. My grandpa couldn't come in because he is a preacher and couldn't get away from his church. Saturday I spent the whole day with Joe. My relatives were already supposed to be in but they didn't end up getting in until that night. This morning I went to church and my Nanny, David, and Joe were already there. After church we all ate at Reno's and it took forever to get the food. It was pretty good though. After eating we all went on our seperate ways. Our pastor asked my Uncle Joe if he would preach the evening service and of course he said yes. Me and Joe went back to listen to my uncle preach. Before the service started the pastor asked my Nanny to get up and say a few words. She testified a little then she sang. My Nanny has such a beautiful voice (it must not run in the family! haha). After that the pastor then asked my Uncle David to testify and he did. Oh yeah, something I didn't say is that my three uncles are preachers. Joe preached an amazing service. After church we all went for ice cream. Everyone stayed there for a long time just talking. David and B.D. were playing around with Joe acting like they were hitting on him. They are so hilarious and they have really big mouths! I love them! When the ice cream place was closing we decided to leave.

Today I woke up around 11 but went back and slept til about 1. My mom woke me up and asked if I wanted to go with her to meet my Uncle Joe at Tops & Bottoms and of course I said yes. Meanwhile David and B.D. had just pulled up and wanted to shoot their guns. That is one thing I will never understand, everytime that my uncles come in they bring their guns with them and they shoot with my dad. Jannike walked outside and they asked her if she wanted to shoot with them. She ended up emptying more than one of my uncles! haha Since she didn't give me enough time to get ready I ended up going up there with Jewel an hour later. I got a pretty pink and white pair of k-swiss. Me, Jewel, and Jank decided to go back to the hotel where David and B.D. were and hung out there for an hour or two waiting on Joe, mom, dad, nanny, and Jess to get back to the hotel. We were all going to the fair. They were all shopping and didn't get back until 2 hours after they were supposed to so we didn't go to the fair. Everyone was getting hungry so we decided to eat at monterreys. I have no idea how to spell that! The food was really good. Fried ice cream is so so so so so so yummy! On the way back to the vehicle a guy drove by and was blasting some music so David started dancing so stupid and had us all cracking up. He wouldn't quit, it was so funny! We went back to the hotel and stayed there until 12. I am so exhausted right now. I have to work tomorrow and we are supposed to go to the fair. I thought I was supposed to get off work at 4 but it's really 6 so I don't know what we will do. Hopefully somehow I can get off at 4. It really sucks that they are only gonna be here two more days. I am going to miss them so bad when they go back home. I am definitely going to take pictures and use my camcorder. I wish they would all move down here, that would be wonderful!

I didn't see Joe at all today. I wish I would have. He called me while I was with my family and left me the sweetest voice mail. Awwwww, I love him so much!!!!!♥
I'm going to bed now.

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finally* [08 Aug 2005|02:51am]
[ mood | sleepy ]

It has been a while but I have been so busy! I am up way too late considering that I have to work in the morning but I am trying to help a friend right now. He's having a hard time and I'm trying to give him the best advice I have, I hope I'm helping!

College starts back before too long and I really dread that. I've been working so much recently that I hardly have time for anything else.

That was a sad update but it's time for bed.

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[30 Jul 2005|11:56pm]
[ mood | calm ]

I think my boss is trying to kill me! I normally work four days a week and at most two days in row. I have worked Thurs, Fri, today and I'm scheduled to work tomorrow and Monday, off Tues, work Wed and Thursday then off Friday. Today I worked 7 am to 5. I was soo tired. Last night Joe was here and he put together a swing for our new deck. The instructions said it should take about 30 minutes to assemble but it took Joe over 2 hours! The instructions were awful, there were just pictures with a few words. I stayed out there with him for a few minutes but it got really boring and listening to him and my dad trying to figure everything out was frustrating. I didn't get in the bed til after 1 last night and I got up at 6:30 to go to work.

I took pictures of Raider today. I love him, he is the cutest dog ever! I'm really surprised he was calm enough for me to take a few of him. Most of the time where he is running around at least one of his ears is flipped over, like in one of the pictures. His eye looks kind of scary in the other picture, it's a crazy color for some reason. I'll share two with you guys.

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[25 Jul 2005|12:24am]
[ mood | sleepy ]

It's been a little while. I've been really busy with Joe and work, I feel like I haven't had as much time as I need to do anything. I actually like driving the car, I've pretty much gotten the hang of it!
Today me and Joe played kickball and threw a frisbee, it was so much fun. I was going to cheat and not go all the way to the base when he was running after the ball but the grass was wet and when I turned back around really fast to run the other direction before he caught me, I slipped and fell on my butt so hard. It hurt really bad! hahaha.. My little sister came out and tossed the frisbee with us and accidentally threw it in the weeds and it took Joe about 20 mins to find it. I'm gonna go get in the bed now, I am getting up early to run with Joe. I've spent my whole summer being lazy by not exercising but starting tomorrow, I am going to run/walk two miles as often as I can. I love to run.
Good night

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[15 Jul 2005|02:26am]
Well I drove the car today and I freaked out because I about got me and my dad hit but hey, I didn't! haha I just found out one of my friends (she used to be my best friend) isn't a virgin anymore. I don't know what to say. I'm disappointed! I'm hopping in the bed now!
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[13 Jul 2005|01:23am]
[ mood | relaxed ]

I never knew it was possible to love a person as much as I love Joe.

This morning (actually afternoon haha) I woke up feeling crappy. My back hurt, I was moody and I had cramps.. gotta love that monthly visitor! Anyway I went to work at 4 and felt ok. Around 6 my lower back started to hurt really really really bad, to the point of where I couldn't turn around fully or bend over very far. I was burning up but I had chill bumps, I also felt very sick to my stomach. I decided I would tough it out seeing as how there was only one other cashier for the night. Around 6:30 I was feeling worse and I knew I shouldn't be at work feeling like this so on my break I called Joe and told him what was going on and he told me he would leave right then to come down to the store. I tried to call my mom to ask her what to do (whether to leave work then or try to wait a little longer) but she wasn't home. I decided to leave when Joe got down to the store because I knew I had to go home. I definitely didn't want to throw up at work in front of everyone. We got here and Joe stayed here with me. For an hour or two I just sat/laid on the couch with him. Finally I started feeling better. I never threw up, which I am very glad for (it scares me when I throw up, I shake so bad). I felt bad for leaving work but I couldn't stay. I think my manager understood, she's really nice. Joe stayed until late with me even though he went in to work at 8. Awww, he's so sweet. I Love Him! I don't work tomorrow! yay! I have to practice driving a stick some more and watch the movie I rented, Message in a Bottle. Time for bed


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[06 Jul 2005|01:38am]
[ mood | tired ]

It's been a little while.... I've been soooo busy. I worked Friday, Saturday, Sunday and Monday. It wouldn't have been so bad if it wasn't so busy in the store. I'm so glad I had today off.

For the 4th, Me, Joe, Mom, Dad, Jess, and Jannike went to the Breaks. It was so much fun! The ride there sucked because it was a very curvy road and I was so exhausted from work. I ended up falling asleep on Joe. When we finally got there both of my sisters wanted to ride horses. While they did that, my mom and dad decided they wanted to take a walk so Me and Joe decided to go with them. What we didn't know is that it was longer than expected and it was mostly downhill on the way there so the way back was fun! haha.. After the walk we all wanted to ride the paddle boats. Me and Joe named ours "The Love Boat" haha I had the best time on that little boat, we both did. Mom and dad's boat was messed up somehow so they couldn't steer too good, it was funny! We got something to eat after that, my fries were awesome. The overlooks were amazing, even though I am scared of heights. After spending a little over three hours there, we headed back towards home. Me and Joe fell asleep on my couch and mom woke us up a few minutes until 9 to go to town and see the fireworks. The fireworks didn't start until 45 minutes until they were supposed to but we didn't care. Me and Joe sat in the back of Dad's truck to watch them. They were pretty good considering St. Paul is a very small town. Since we were both so tired, he went home as soon as we came back to my house.

Today I didn't do a thing, other than watch Little Black Book. It was a cute movie. I have to work tomorrow, well today. It's getting late so I'm going to finish talking to people on ICQ and hop in the bed..good night.


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L o n g day... [02 Jul 2005|12:13am]
[ mood | exhausted ]

Oh gosh, today I worked 7-4. Now that was horrible!!! It was so busy and by 3 I thought I was gonna fall asleep. I have to work again tomorrow at 10 am, Sunday at 4, and Monday at 8am. Fun, fun! After work I went to Joe's house and we had planned on watching The Family Man but we didn't get to. I love that movie, Joe's never seen it. I also rented Little Black Book and Garden State. I finished reading Message in a Bottle and I cried my eyes out. It was such a good book. We took some pictures tonight after we got back here. All of them were retarded. I will leave you all with one. And oh yeah, my foot really didn't stink, it was just for the picture! haha


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Time for a little change!!* [29 Jun 2005|02:24pm]
[ mood | blank ]

I was bored..... soooo I changed my userinfo around a little bit!

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[28 Jun 2005|02:35am]
[ mood | weird ]

"How's it gonna be, when you don't know me anymore.. how's it gonna be?"

Even though the song is about fighting and stuff (which only happened once), it reminds me of a past relationship and brings back feelings. I remember listening to it one night while I was talking to him and telling him that I don't ever want to wonder that, I always want to be with him. It's crazy how a song can bring back memories. Even though I am extremely happy now, sometimes I just want to think back and remember how things were with him and wish I talked to him now. He was a really good guy, my first real boyfriend. We dated over a year and a half. That was a major part of my life and of high school. It bothers me that I don't remember too much about our relationship since he was such a big part of my life and my first real boyfriend. I thought he meant everything to me. He was my first real heart break. The song also reminds me how much I have changed and just how much I have matured since then. It is kind of a sentimental thing. I thought he was my first love but it wasn't really love. It was like young "puppy love." Joe is my first and only love. I think that no matter what I will always have something for my ex, but I think that's ok. I am very very much in love with Joe, and that will never change.

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*Let the world crash.... love can take it!* [27 Jun 2005|01:52am]
[ mood | tired ]

I had such a wonderful wonderful day today! I went to church this morning with Joe. Afterward, we cooked out over here on the grill. Joe did the grilling and the burgers were so good! After eating we went to the library so I could get a Nicholas Sparks book. He is such a good author. After the library we went to Flag Rock and walked around. There is a beautiful lookout up there, I should have taken a picture or two. My oldest sister, Jewel, went up there with her boyfriend, Chris, the other day and said they went to The Towers. I have no idea what that is so me and Joe decided to drive farther up the road to find it. After driving over 20 minutes we figured we didn't go the right way or should have turned off so we turned around. We never found that place! haha We came back here watched tv and talked to mom a little bit. I guess he left a little after 12. I miss him. I don't know what we will get into tomorrow. I want to see Mr. & Mrs. Smith but I dunno...Joe is supposed to come over and weedeat in the morning/afternoon before we leave. I need to take a shower and get in the bed so I'm gonna go do that now. Good night all!


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[22 Jun 2005|11:46pm]
[ mood | frustrated ]

Work was absolutely awful tonight. I got so mad because one of the cashiers hid for about an hour so no customers would see her and come through her line. All of those customers came to me. The other one walked around aimlessly for over an hour. He was supposed to be doing his closing tasks but he only go 3 done in an hour and a half!!! It takes me a little over an hour to do all 15 and to do them right. On top of all this a woman came in with $17 in change.. I was trying to count it out and she started jumping on me telling me that I needed to count faster because she had to pick up her kids from Bible school... aaahhhh.. I really wanted to scream at her. It's her fault that she had so much uncounted change. While I was the only one on a register with a lot of people in my line I had to bag the groceries too because the managers were telling jokes in the office instead of helping me! So yeah, tough night! I really needed to vent.

I'm worried about my little sister. She went to the doctor for some kind of shot and for some reason he had her do a urine sample. He told her that he thinks she needs to see a kidney specialist after he got the results from the sample. She went to the kidney specialist and he found a cyst on her kidney. He said he thinks it's not maligant. She is kind of scared and so is everyone else in my family. I'm going to pray that she will be ok.


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*..Pointless entry..* [22 Jun 2005|01:41pm]
[ mood | awake ]

I feel so lazy. I haven't even put my contacts in even though I do hate wearing my glasses. Mom woke me up this morning around 8 to let me know that her, dad, and my sister were leaving. I fell asleep until they came back! haha I have to work today, 4-9:45. I need to bathe Raider (my dog). If I do soon, I will take a picture of him so you all can see him. He is the cutest dog ever! I don't work tomorrow but Joe does. I have no idea what we are going to do Friday. I wish I had the money to go shopping. I'm going to go now


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[20 Jun 2005|02:01pm]
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[18 Jun 2005|05:09pm]
[ mood | happy ]

I am in such a good mood for no particular reason. I'm very surprised that I'm not tired. I had to work 9-3 today. I was really proud of myself this past week because I got up around 9 a.m. every day and stayed up all day. Those people were here every day from about 9:30 til 4 everyday working on the floor and it looks so good now.

Last night I had the chance to see Skillet in concert but things just didn't work out so that sucked. Instead me and Joe went to Johnson City to meet up with Jewel and Chris at Cheddars (yum!). Before yesterday Chris barely spoke to me or Joe. Jewel said it was because he was shy but c'mon, they've been dating for about three months. Anyway last night he talked to both me and Joe quite a bit and even paid for our food. I was really happy that he came out of his shell. He's a nice guy. After eating Joe took me to the mall so I could shop a little. He bought me two pairs of flip flops.. I love them! I bought myself a shirt from American Eagle, I love that store. Ohmygosh, I was in a store last night and this guy more than glanced at me when I walked in (Joe wasn't with me at the time) but I didn't pay much attention to it. I was looking at underwear and the way he looked at me scared me so bad so I just decided to leave. As I was leaving, I could see him, out of the corner of my eye, watch me as I was leaving then turn to watch me as I walked out the door!!! What a freak..

Joe is supposed to be coming over on his lunch.. YAY! I bet he will be hungry so I will probably grill him a hamburger and hotdog or two.. That boy can eat! He has started using his Total Gym and doing all kinds of stomach exercises. He says he's not going to stop until he's completely ripped! Woo hoo! Tomorrow he wants to see the new Batman movie. I only kinda want to see it but of course we will see it. Jewel and Chris saw it last night and they thought it was awesome.

I feel so sorry for my lil sis. At work I was talking to a girl that is related to him and she told me something that Josh did while he was dating Jannike that he shouldn't have done. I told her, I had to. She started crying so now I just feel awful for her.

My tanning and exercising has fallen through the cracks.. haha I feel like I don't have very much time to do either. I wish I did though. I look better with a tan. I'm going to clean a little then get some food ready for Joe


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[14 Jun 2005|09:57am]
[ mood | awake ]

I really really hated work last night! It was just so awful. It was really busy and working with lazy people is never fun because I end up doing most, if not all, of the work. Anywayyyyy, yesterday people came to redo the back room floor. The problem with this is that you have to go through the back room to get to the bathroom. I had to get ready for work so I had to keep going to the bathroom for different things. It's kind of crazy taking a shower when you know that there are people you don't know right outside the door! haha My mom woke me up before they got there (at 8:30!) because my dad was gone and she didn't want to be up by herself with strange people, totally understandable. I stayed up and didn't take a nap, I'm so proud. But, as a result of that, I was so tired at work. Today I got up a little before 9 because they are gonna be here again today. No one can sleep with people using hammers and saws. I am so happy that I don't have to work today. I have absolutely nothing to do. It is supposed to rain, it definitely looks like it will. If the sun comes out eventually, I want to lay outside. I feel so sorry for my little sis, Jannike. Her boyfriend broke up with her yesterday. She's pretty upset. He was her first "real" boyfriend. I remember what it was like when me and my boyfriend broke up when I was about that age. I was really immature then tho, haha. I dated him for over a year and a half but she dated her b/f for three months. But hey, I moved on and she will too! I was planning on going shopping Friday with Joe because I get paid on Thursday. After planning on this I remembered that I have a $65 cell phone bill due Wednesday ( I have never been late paying that until this month) and Father's Day is Sunday. There go my big plans! I want to save up enough to where I will have at least over $200. I just love shopping, it always makes me feel better.

I haven't tried to drive the car anymore. I honestly haven't had time to do it. I NEED to make time, right? Well those people are here so I'm gonna go.


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